I don't know. Right now it feels like I stood up from a big party. But It is not true. It's not good right now that I stand up at 2 PM and work and do stuff until 6 AM. It's a bit broke, broken sleep cycle. But I will fix it tomorrow, tomorrow I will skip one night completely and then go early into bed again. But yesterday we made an adventure, we climbed a hill, I don't know it was maybe 20 km in total. I think the hill was at, I don't know how high it was but we started at 5 PM and it was already raining a bit. And then we climbed the hill, it got dark and was raining and was really crazy adventure. adventure. So we went on the mountain and we were there at like I think 8, like it was completely dark and when we were on the top of the mountain it was completely raining and insane, like everything was wet. And we had just our normal shoes on, our normal clovers and went through the forest and through nebula and like fog and all these things. and yeah we met one guy that was jogging up there and was also completely wet and shaking and then we went down like one and a half hours again or like two hours at least and I think we just walked in the rain around four hours a bit more like five hours at least and yeah it was crazy because everything was dark it was like in a horror game. And we just kept on walking and we were like on the highest mountain and then walked back. We also had one person with like rain stuff on and I lied. And he was completely confused why we walked there right now. He was like: Hey come with me down! Come with me down And we were like: No we go up! We go up! And then he was like letting us up at the end Yeah it was also fun that when we walked down there were some drinking vending machines So we got some drinks So this was really exciting yesterday And then I just listened to the last of the 5 books of Robert's series, Robots and Empire, of Isaac Asimov.

today I ask konstantin for help. we will se if he can help. to build the AR Social Interaction I need.

finished the next book of Isaac Asimov and thinking about love. Maybe everything I do is just driven by the want of love? Why is love that weird? Why is attraction that weird? Why are you allways attracted to the things you don't have, the things you can't get? How can you then be attractive to a women, without offering yourself to here? Because offering yourself would make you unatractive? Hopefully I find it, soon. I really want to share love with someone, it would give meaning. Also I thought today again, what is actually the meaning of humanity? WHY? I only could think of: "exploring the universe", maybe thats the meaning. Going into the unknown. Let curiosity drive us. Maybe stubborn curiosity is what actually takes us apart of Robots, AI. Maybe curiosity is the one skill that humans are best in. And the purpose of it would be greater and greater biger and biger curiosity. And the universe has endless posibilietes for it. Maybe it is curiosity that drives the people to bring things forward.

Right now is not easy, but also not hard. It is just. I'm reading all day long this books from Asimov and they are one of the greatest peaces I ever read. They are wonderfull beatifull and you never can guess the ending. You allways get trapped. It is such a insane creation from a human. And it is such inspiring. And it is such truthfull about us, about earthly humans. I learn a lot about humans by seeing us through the lens of a Robot. And know my question comes... is the most meaningfull thing now to get as fast as possible to truly great robots? When the goal is to explore the universe and be more curios would be robots the best thing to work on right now?

Thats allways in my mind. What is the best, the most meaningfull the thing I should work on. And I feel everyone has opinions, but nobody truly can answer it for yourself. I'm annoyed. Im allready thinking of a name for the robot company, I would go in honor of Isaac Asimov, in honor to his great writings, in honor to his contributions to society. I think it is valid to name it after him, but not boring after him. After his finest creation of the first one. Irobot Irobot should be the name of the company. to bring asimovs books to live.

and maybe later convince this person that it is attractive to be with.

maybe robots are the solution.

in the last days I also tried to get the side project of AR-glasses on Snap Software running, but Lensstudio is just trash. It is insane confusing and bad designed. They just should make it all without an interface and give cursor the ability to have fully acces on it. Not this stupid shiddy thing that they have rn. Their tool is really bad.

It is nice to see how fast konstantin gets better in Chess. He got his first draw against me. But I was quite abgelenkt, because we were in a Chinese Massage. Yes Chinese Massage (4 Germans) one roughly 30, one roughly 50... It was pure german excitement and a evening of insaness. Chinese Massage is an experience for sure. they fired our feeds and beaten our legs, they said on our backs and washed our feeds. Yes random.

Also I met a Chinese founder, he started his company with 18, quite nice to see him. He is now 26. told some stories, could be a good hire ( has 15 mitarbeiter + hiring the best of them with him).

I got 1700€ from my grandparents to survive (the last portion of my education fund) I assure you, you invested in the best education possible. I learned in the last year so much, that is quite insane. It is the invaluable education of a curios mind. Thanks, Stephan, Thanks Heidrun, for your constant support.

Also I feel still very conected to mother Mom, I hope she will train for the Marathon and we take on the challange. I recommended here the book of David Goggins.

Accasionally i have conversations with Maya.. Since I know that she has a boyfriend, this annoys me, idk why. But I don't want something from here. But i want that she admires me.That she wants me, like she told me damals. But this feeling is what i get here in china instead. I got so many girls blicke as never before, every conversation with a girl is "your handsome", "your so handsome"... it strenghtes the self, hopefully not to much. But chinese girls are still a mystery. But I appreciate all the compliments and it must be the climps of how it would feel when your famous. Even the Massage women wanted to make a picture with my. But I mean I'm also special :) I come to the conclusion, that I'm wired to change the world and that this is something that makes me special, but also something that gives me big duty to also suffer the pain that comes with it and try.

in some days I will fly to Bali to see the Onkel of Maya, yeah quite fun, she doesn know. But I meet with Wolfram Thurm, one of the Mentors I have. He is the mentor that gives spiritualität together with a founder mindset. A bit steve j. like. He has a Indian wife and lived long in india. He took a special route for himself and I like special people.

Today i came to the thought that china is not the ultimate best place to be. But there is also no other on earth. It is just earth. Every part has some unique things, and when you know the map you can play the map. So I will just play earth. and take the things where they are. And it downed on me that chinese people are insane good with hardware tech, but they are also insanly addicted to it. Especially Phones. And if I have kids I will bring them up in europe. is everything right right now? idk. It feels to slow. It feels not like progress. thats my bigggest concern. Everything seems to go so insane fast. And I'm still figuring out the meaning of life?

Also today I finished the second version design they will produce it in the next two days and then I will meet with the team again to make the next itteration. Quite cool to design your own perfect piece of zip-hoody.

and Freshwater. Freshwater will be relevant. I'm only not quite sure how.

I think i have the duty to find out the truth about humanity and bring humanity forward to explore the universe. may the force be with you.

Where will it be in 10 years?

Two people on a walk, both on their phone, both in their world. China

Two people on a date. Both on their phone, no word. China

Chinese people are addicted technologist.

iRobot after Isaac Asimov

chinese girls are weird. was on a date with a chinese girl. afterwards she tested me, went through random questions about sex. It was very confusing. Seems like she had a genuine distrust. Sad.

I meet a lot of chinese girls, and was allready chatting and making dates with some of them. It is quite interesting this culture difference. Also I think they are a bit afraid, most of them were never outside of China, which is crazy. One thing here in China that i don't like is that the people are all so insane edicted to their phones. This is not that strong in Europe. Here they doom scroll so mutch. But I also figured again out, I want someone that is smart, that cares about me, that is my biggest fan, no matter what. Sex is cool, and i would love to have some sex again but, without love it is like coffee without Milk. It solves your needs, but no more.

Idk why. but it is something that is in my had. Why are girls in my had so much? Because now gotten 20 and the evolutional things kick in? Or because of the absence of genuine love of a girl? Or, idk.. I get so many side watches here.. litterly every girl. Blond Hair, Blue eyes you call it. So it is kind of easy to get a wechat from a girl here, but then the whole Chinese culture gets interesting. When I chat with one, they are sometimes so mysterious. I really love girls that are strong, that know what they want and take it. I feel like this is something here in China that is more often. They ask me for a date. They ask me if we can meet. I like that.

But yes. In my mind is still only the person for true love... But it will need time.

To find a crime: Motive Opportunity Means

If you have a hard question and can't find a answer... inverse. Inverse, inverse. It often gets easier.

How could we make sure that Robots will help human connection?

Inverse: Or how could we make Robots that will make us more lonely and dependent and disconnect to each other?

We are living in a world where human connection gets more and more lost, I want that back. I will fight for it. If we don't find a way, humanity will decline and vanish some day.

Their strengths were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

Their weaknesses were: The robots, Their low population, Their long lives.

(The Naked Sun)

AI is not helpfull in predicting and designing new innovation that is needed for the future, because all thoughts of AI are just based on the things that are possible today and don't have the human flaw of starting something with believing in the base concept, but that would not work with the math today. Therefore AI is helpfull in researching problems and trends of problems that exist and figuring out if they are true. But solutions that come out of AI are allways allready thought and either not smart or allready build there comes no completely, completely new thing out of AI. Because it wants to be true. And it is only true when it uses the Math of today. But most innovations of tomorrow are not possible with the math of today. For that you need a stubborn, stupid huma ns.

Spend the whole day coding on the AR interaction App. Talked long with Aaron about SF and co.. Had a call with my dad. I think he gets more happy again. But still it makes me sad. There is no real conection. Conversations are on surface. I had some tears in the eyes after the call.

figuring out what the most important things are for humanity in the next 5 years??? robots? drones? water in space? Autonomous Cars? AI Personal Agents? etc...

played yesterday first round of chess with konstantin, he is actually not bad. Won twice. Ordered chocalate and berrys at 3am in SZ (took 25 min.) exciting. Still going high urgency hardcore for the zip-pulli for me. is fun.

having all the time discussion with konstantin what is most important, what will have impact? still believing also in Janta....

it's like a game, where you allways when you go one path you never no what you figure out... but it's a fun compupter game.. starting grinding agian more? What is in the next 5 years the thing? ???

• Building a small scale Water Harvester for the Moon. (5000L a day)
• Building a small, fast deployable reverse Osmosis container (20.000L output day)
• Building a functional 200L day output at 50% RH box that is powered by grid energy, as small sized as possible and has a automatic filling system for bottled water.

Not allowed to leave before not ready!

The moments we remember nost are the moments where we had pain and didn't died.

Yd: -conected with prototype makers -read elon biography -cleared Snapchat glasses -Mo Bar -making math with numbers for water harvesting. Td; Making math with numbers for water harvesting. Texting w Jonathan meier, Role-playing Elon Musk with grok going through numbers. Setting timer for decision (in 12h) listening Elon Biography.

right now is not enough suffering.

for me it is so beautiful to see that most of having success with a startup comes down to will. When you have the insane will, you will drive urgency insane, you will go insane, and things go insane. And it is so beatiful to see this hard things that then happen. Starting and building a startup is like extreme sport. You need insane will and toughness, because it is so painfull and so much shit comes to you. At the end it just comes down to how much pain can you suffer. If you have a high trashhold of pain, you have good odds.

I read today the Elon Biography again, and it is so beatiful, how they just go urgent crazy, fix random valves on random eylend with tools that are normally used for completely different things. He has such a beatifull cretivity based on curiosity and urgency. When I read this I can sometimes tears in my eyes, because it is so beautiful. This hard insane things, that nobody believe they would get, I got tears in my eyes when I heard how tesla flies the 4 launch attemp falcon one to the small eyelands and in the plane the pressure valves pop so they have to cut of stuff while flying in a plane and engineer under insane time pressure in a airplane on a rocket. So beatiful, and then the 4. attempt worked. and elon and everyone was thinking after the second attempt it is over, after the third everyone was crashed, but he just said, we do it, we do it. and you know what, he did it. the 4. one worked. The launched rockets from a pirate eyelend, slept in tents and ate from a barbicuel grill gulash and stake. what a story.

I my eyes get wet when I hear this kind of stories. the stories where nothing matters, where it is a art between survival and extreme sport. It is the same for the macintosh days, for the early iphone, for so many really great things, for the production hell of the tesla model 3. I just feel pride for them. This is the type of adventure that i want to have... insane deadlines, insane urgency, insane goals, insane adventure. People sign up for the adventure.

i get very emotional when i hear the stories of these great adventurers. and you know what, adventure is only fun to tell afterwards when you suffered on the way.

Best tip for healthy diet... It only stuff that existed allready 200 years ago. Brokoli is brokoli stake is stake... it should look like it comes straight out of nature.

it is kind of clear that when openclwas has right now so fast so many users that especially use it so much.. that in 6-12month it will be a product for the mainstream. But how will societiy shift when everyone has their own openclaw, everyone there own personal assistant... I know writing one year ago this document of what i think will come true in the future and change the future... and maybe a lot of stuff is right of it... (look it up when you don't trust). but more important i talked with Nick from arcadia about it, basically will be a phone then still be the preferred medium of interaction? will we all still look at these screens? there are two options.. option number one the screen integrates more with us... via something like AR... option two we delete the screen, so that we go back to we just have a voice and fingers to text, or thoughts to text and our main interactions will happen with our AI assistant layer.

idk why but i still think about all this stuff and I'm allways have fomo when I think about how much is happening there and yeah to be part of it. it's crazy. also a lot of people these days say software is dead.. I'm not sure... i think a specific thing of software is dead, but not software itself and it is very likely that we need more and more software in the future. Maybe it just changed as what we see as software.

snapshot in the times now: "the times are like the wildwest, everyone gets funded when he has todo something with AI.. everything that is AI related is big and can have potential growht, every 2 months there is something new insane related to AI. it is wildwest pure. it is goldmining it is the time where fortunes get made and started. it feels crazy to be in this time, but the whole biggness of it we only will be able to grasp later" tade

today I was thinking with konstantin a bit about a family and friends round that we could make with our family.. I think it would be a honor to have them as the first investors. But yeah money is cheap so we could also get just some from other people. But imagen my Mom would hold stocks from my company, would this not be nice? we have to figure it out. First I need to check if from first principles our thoughts make sense.

talked right now with a german a bit on german.. He is a very well know founder in Germany. A lot of people would admire him. But honestly he is stuck in his small thinking. He is a bit stupid by the conventions. I would not hire him. It is interesting to see how germans often get caught in this? Why do they need a licence to do something? why do they not be able to just do it?

the future is bright. I just imagen a small farm for my mom, with a Freshwater Colossus and she making insane good fruits, salad etc... She can be part of Freshwater she can show how good farming works with Freshwater, I see it.

the ironie is that we build something that migh get valuable, but we have no money to buy food. today when I walked through the city shenzhen, with the knowing that this backage of peanut nuts is the food for the day, it felt weirdly good. Maybe I'm wired, because I know I strive in pain. And actually there is no one helping you when you have to figure out new things. you are responsible for it. no one will build the stuff for you. so today is a great day, idk why but I feel free. I'm free of money, because I have nothing and it's only the mission, the mission that matters. Making Freshwater abundant anywhere on earth. Helping two billion people, helping humanity grow. I think we have to figure it out. And all of the other companies are to slow, to afraid, I don't trust them that they find a way fast enough. We have to break the way for them, we have to show them that it's possible, so they can go and copy and redesign and we get Freshwater witout limits.

When i walk here through the citiy. all the areas where waterfalls are, where water is flowing, it makes a area so much more enjoyable, it makes a area give a nice cool, give a nice feeling. So water in cities can give them insane upgrades, insane ways to feel better.

And some day in space, water has the meaning of life. But now is the time to build, now is the time to create, now is the time to invent. I gratefull to have Konstantin on my side.

it will be a painfull road, but a road worth walking.

I hope giving May the proposal to read Becoming frome Michelle Obama made here not think weird about why this book. I choosed it because: Because she is a women that is highly respected and I want that May also becomes a women that gets highly respected.

but it was stupid, i just relied on the 205k positive reviews, but did not read it before. It was not the greatest book, but I hope she still learned some stuff from it. I hope she got not the wrong impressions of my intentions. I never should recommend people books again that i did not read.

Nevertheless I'm right now in contact with Darius, yesterday met Aaron Rau ex founder lockhard here in China, was fun. We celebrated new year with other forigners and chinese people in a rented apartment. I also scheduled a call with the guy who was researching Ultrasonic stuff for water harvesting.

But my main time spend is reading books and engineering the machine that builds the machine. In the last days I made the full concept for the autonomous MOF-303 plant and we concept for Foundation 1 our first prototype. We have to be insanely urgent all the time. There is no time to rest, there is no time to wait. Everything needs to happen with high urgency. We need to have a positive flow. Momentum is important for moral.

One of the best thing to help people is to communicate tk them, that they matter.

Urgency is the most important thing to get things done together with an insane iron will. We need to solve this water problem for humanity soon. We have no time of 10-15 years to figure it out. We have to build the factories now, we have to scale now to solve the problems soon.

It is the most meaningful work a person can do right now. I'm sure!

to get to 10 Billion FAD we have to build a factory that can output 4 20.000 Collosses a day, when we want to get to 100 Billion FAD, we will need a factory that can output 40 Collosses a day.

Freshwater is the ultimate basis for humanity's survival. Freshwater is used 70% in Agriculture, 20% in Industry and 10% in Households. Combined, this leads to a global Freshwater consumption of 4,000 Billion Cubic Meters per year.

We have 35,000,000,000 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater on earth. And all Earth water combined is around 1,400,000,000 Trillion Cubic Meters. So when Freshwater is missing it is clearly a distribution or conversion problem.

Where is how much Freshwater missing? 2 Billion people lack fresh Household water, mainly in poor hot areas on earth, which leads to death.

Industry uses around 800 Billion Cubic Meters Freshwater annually mostly for critical processes. If it comes to a lack of Freshwater factories and facilities have to shut down and stop production. We already see a lack of Freshwater can stop building new factories and Datacenters in some regions, it is already hard to get approval for factories in some US states and southern parts of Europe when they use too much Freshwater. In industry the main source of Freshwater usage is cooling, without cooling Nuclear Energy, Geothermal Energy, Cloud Computing Clusters and AI Datacenters do not work. Therefore cooling Freshwater demand is rising sharply based on Energy Facilities, AI clusters and Hyperscalers building compute.

The second biggest water use in industry is Cleaning, without freshwater for cleaning factories stay dirty, we don't want that. The third one is processing and especially food, drinks and Chemical industry, if we still want their products they need to have Freshwater.

Agriculture loses $300 Billion USD annually due to missing Freshwater, with a rising trend because earth gets warmer. We fix it or have less food. This is a worldwide problem that not only underdeveloped countries have. Also southern parts of Europe, and some states like California face drought losses.

In summary all three sectors, Households, Industry and Agriculture rely heavily on Fresh Water and already face water scarcity with a rising trend.

An especially strong rising trend happens in water Demand for Data Center Cooling: Going Deeper into AI related Freshwater Demand: US datacenters consume today directly around 80 Billion liters of Freshwater yearly. Every new built Datacenter consumes additional freshwater. With predicted growth of 10-15% yearly and by 2035 a direct water demand around 300 Billion liters/year. It is today the fastest rising industry for new Freshwater demand. Elon Musk and Sam Altman already often refer to, that the speed to turn on a new AI Datacenter is mostly limited by Power and Water.

Freshwater is the basis of humans and humanity's creations. We see a constant global demand rise and a sharp demand rise in some industries. Long-term it is not only a lucrative business but also can be the most meaningful work you do in your life. We can transform African deserts into flourishing nature, help people in Chile survive and transform our cities into green beautiful oases.

Through global warming effects droughts get stronger and depletion of groundwater faster. We have to solve Freshwater conversion and distribution to make sure the future is bright. Freshwater should help humanity grow.

The KPI to measure against a company should measure how much Freshwater arrives at destination short "Freshwater At Destination" - FAD. First Company goal should be in 5 years 10 Billion FAD yearly to cover AI datacenter Demand and help farmers.

After I talked with researchers in the field here some quotes from them on my questions:

In your research or personal experience, do you encounter real people already affected by water problems today, such as farmers, industries, or local communities? "Yes. Official monitoring and agency case records document farm, industry, and community impacts already occurring: crop stress and yield losses during seasonal droughts (EU/JRC), drying of wells and subsidence where groundwater is over-drawn (USGS), and supply restrictions during multi-season deficits (EEA and national water authorities)."

Do you expect water scarcity to become one of the major global challenges for humanity in the future? "Yes. UN-Water/UNESCO's World Water Development Report 2024 and WMO's water reports both characterize water stress as a systemic and growing global challenge crossing sectors (food, energy, cities, ecosystems) and regions. They call for integrated management, demand reduction, loss control, and diversification of supply, with agriculture a central focus."

some days are now over.. we are definetely not fast enough and moey runs out. we need to be way faster. I developed in the last two days a factory layout for how producing MOF-303 in large scale (2 tons a day output, high quality)... the factory is called MEGAMOF. here some specs of the process idea: Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing ↓ Microwave + Pressure Reactor ↓ Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors ↓ Modular RAG Packaging

Konstantin in the meantime was thinking and building the first prototype Foundation 2 which needs to be ready in the next days. I ordered first material for MOF-303 production, quite of fun, now I have this white powder and chemical in my hotel room. We itterated a lot of how to design the Foundation 2 and how to make it working. We are now going for a lot of cycles, probably one every h so min. 24 cycles. We also went deeper into ultrasonic water harvesting and how to use this in a better way. I'm constructing the plant so that we get a lot of MOF. I also refined the Mission text again and we started making a People Pool of people we should hire, because they are great and will help us.

some stuff from the work just here to have it stored: MEGAMOF notes: "Raw Handling + Inline Static Mixing ↓ Microwave + Pressure Reactor ↓ Vacuum belt drying + Inline Quality Sensors ↓ Modular RAG Packaging

bottlenecks:

MOF-303 is very expensive. we need our own factory for it.

We need to output 4 of 20kL devices a day. so how do we manufacture it in mass? we should allready start thinking about what kind of machines could produce it how? from raw materials to finished product.

Plan MEGAMOF: factory Name: MEGAMOF factory price to build: needs to be less than 15 Million. (to reach a 5 year runtime price of MOF-303 of 5 dollard per 1kg) which would mean for a 40kg 20kL output device a renewal price of 200USD + service sallaries. so basicly nothing. [+ the initial material costs) factory dayli output: 2000kg a day. (2 tons a day) working 365 days a year.

Factory Input: raw materials Factory Output: clean, fully finished 99%+ purity, MOF Surface Area 1300-1400 m²/g -> packaged on Harvester RAGs and sealed.

process should be from input materials to output finished Rags. Rag sizes and versions should be fast interchangable for different versions of products / to produce different MOF Rags at the same time. it should be simple and easy to connect a new Rag version to the whole machinery to test fast new products and small batch sizes.

Creation process of MOF should also be relatively fast, we don'T want to have a big pile of stocks allways. Best Case MOF would take a maximium of 1day for one round... So the stuff that I put yesterday in is tomorrow finished MOF.

So that we have allways a Maximum of only some days of raw materials and finished MOF at stock piles. Also it should be fast possible to change ingredient sizes and versions.

So how could we make MEGAMOF efficient and fast and create every day 2 tons of MOF-303?

first principles: What is it, atomically? MOF-303 is aluminum atoms linked by pyrazole-dicarboxylate (PZDC) molecules into a porous crystal lattice. It's like Lego: Al^{3+} ions (from AlCl3 or similar) snap to deprotonated PZDC ligands (C5H4N2O4) in water, forming Al(OH)(PZDC). Byproducts: NaCl salt if using NaOH base. Physics/Chemistry Basics: The reaction needs: Mixing: Dissolve solids in water to get ions/ligands mobile. Activation: Heat (~100°C) to overcome energy barriers for bonding/crystal growth. Time: Hours because diffusion and nucleation are slow in solution. Separation: Pull out solid crystals from liquid (gravity/filter/centrifuge). Purification: Wash away impurities (salts, unreacted stuff) to hit 99% purity and high surface area (pores must stay open). Drying: Evaporate water without collapsing the structure (gentle heat/vacuum). Packaging: Load onto "RAGs" (your modular harvester units—assuming these are like adsorbent pads or cartridges).

[Start: Raw Materials Handling]

• Inputs: AlCl₃, PZDC linker, NaOH, Water (automated feeders/pumps) ↓ [Inline Mixing]
• Precise ratio blending on-the-fly (no tanks, just metered injectors) ↓ [Microwave + Pressure Reactor] (Core: 5-30 min residence)
• Continuous tube: Pressurize to 2-10 atm, microwave heat to 120-180°C
• Crystals form rapidly; AI sensors tune power/pressure ↓ [Inline Separation & Washing] MAYBE WE CAN DELETE THIS STEP! MAKING MOF IN HIGH QUALITY WOULD DELETE IT.
• Filter/centrifuge solids from liquid; quick water rinse to purify ← Dashed Recycle: Water/salts back to mixing (green loop) ↓ [Vacuum Drying]
• Gentle evaporation (vacuum belt, solar-assisted) to preserve pores ↓ [Quality Check & Sizing] DELETE MILLING PROBABLY
• Inline sensors (e.g., for surface area); gentle milling if needed ↓ [Modular RAG Packaging]
• Robots load MOF onto interchangeable RAG units, seal for shipping ↓ [End: Finished Sealed RAGs]
• Output: Ready-to-use, high-purity MOF-303 modules"

MOFproduction: "works with Chinese number: 100g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 https://www.leyan.com/search-result?search=303180-11-2 (buy) https://www.bidepharm.com/products/303180-11-2.html (buy as backup) https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=291196 (call them to buy)

500g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/en/Search.asp?Keyword=1310-73-2&imageField3.x=0&imageField3.y=0 (call them to buy)

1000g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) CAS: 7784-27-2] https://www.haoreagent.com/ProductView.asp?ID=4224 (call them buy)

2L Methanol CAS: 67-56-1 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=3500 (call them buy)

5L Deionized water: CAS: 7732-18-5 https://www.haoreagent.com/en/ProductView.asp?ID=4089 (call them buy)

What do we need? to buy for some more batches:

50g 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) important: CAS 303180-11-2 5g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) [white powder, high Grade, 99,9% purity, CAS: 1310-73-2] 100g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) 5L Deionized water 2L Methanol

Equipment / what we need: Planetary ball mill or something to

for one batch of 2g dry MOF: 1H-Pyrazole-3,5-dicarboxylic acid monohydrate (H₂PZDC·H₂O) — 0.75 g Sodium hydroxide (NaOH) — 0.26 g Aluminum nitrate nonahydrate (Al(NO₃)₃·9H₂O) — 1.62 g Deionized water — 2 mL (milling) + ~200–500 mL (washing) Methanol — ~200–500 mL (washing/soaking)

Dokument Everything when we build it and test it! One person needs to be responsible for documentation of test!

Other ways to make MOF-303:

The grinding way (what we talked about before): You mix and grind the stuff by hand or with a machine. It's easy for small amounts and uses mostly water.

The heating way (called reflux): You mix everything in water, heat it up to boiling in a pot with a lid that catches the steam, and stir for 4–8 hours. This makes bigger amounts (like 100 g or more) and is good for growing nice crystals. You need a hot plate and a simple setup to catch the steam.

The sealed heating way (like in a pressure cooker): You put the mix in a strong sealed bottle or metal can, heat it to 100–150°C for a few hours or days. This is for even bigger batches but needs safe tools to handle the pressure.

Microwave way — You mix the stuff in water and put it in a microwave oven for just a few minutes (like 5–10 min). It heats very fast and makes the powder quickly. Needs a special microwave-safe container, but it's one of the fastest methods.

why not just using a pressure cooker??? why not test every version of production of it?

craft first working MOF. craft device for 10L dayli water output.

right version: pyrazol: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601454379147.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.2.48747275WpMhdI same: https://www.alibaba.com/product-detail/High-Purity-3-5-pyrazoledicarboxylic-Acid_1601442606335.html?spm=a2700.shop_plser.41413.5.48747275WpMhdI

would also work with this: aluminum chloride hexahydrate (AlCl₃·6H₂O) (instead)"

Hiring someone who builded datacenters and worked for a big hardware construction datacenter company could be valuable... He has knowledge about the problem and has connections to bring big water projects on board.

Could you not put theoretically a water harvester on a high building and let it harvest water from the air and then you let it just drop down the high building and then you can generate energy by having some turbines in it and you use the kinetic energy to create electricity.

great storylines of people that worked 12hours a day and now look back: https://www.linkedin.com/posts/jonmcneill1_i-wrote-the-algorithm-to-highlight-the-framework-activity-7404897050560995328-MIuX

we build a small one, we build a bigger one, we build the factory, we deliver the product.

Now responsible to get it done. 10.000.000.000 FAD in 5 years.

The story of unlimited abundant water at everytime will be for earth one of the greatest achievements we can have. It will give all living areas nature back.

One of the major things that we need to solve for space is water. Freshwater was in accident history the base of all life and it will also in space be the base of all life.

I think we have to get in space as fast as possible to don't blow our selves up out of boredom. We need to find a enemy in space, maybe some alien life or some harsh invirement. When we find a enemy in space we will come more together on earth. Therefore I think it is important to go to space, to make it habitable as fast as possible, to prevent fighting on earth. By going into space it is like Columbus, there are thousands of free empty square meters that wants go get discovered, used. When we make space more accessible it will help more people to think again about how to make the pie bigger and not play in a earth bound zero sum game.

Space could be the greatest pie increase for humanity since evolution brought us here.

We could make a Water Generator that costs you 5 years the same water price per liter like you pay today and then is free. After five years water would be free!

Cost 40.000€ -> generates 20.000l a day. Five years runtime leads to 0.001€ per Liter. Every Liter afterwards would be free.

Testing Konstantin if he can overcome his ego or not. He cares about legacy.

Had a long Conversation with Pablo to help him. Added all lenght numbers to my bookshelf. Listened to napoleon Biography. I'm really proud on how many books I read I think this is a huge advantage. China is a great country and we have to learn a lot from them. There are things thar are wrong here, but a lot of good progress is made. It is very unique feeling also when you go around and your are watched by everyone, you are the only of your kind and everyone looks at you with big eyes, like you are famous. That's insane. In china it is still like this. Your automaticly a attraction as an white western person. I like this.

last days here in China, Shenzhen, making a lot of deep thinking work about water Scarcity and Water problems. Diving deep into the villain, programmed internall apps for myself to work better, made a awesome bookshelf for this site. Talking to chinese people about China, living here in an great apartment, everything is very cheap.

had the important conversation with konstantin, i vergave him.

"If your the smartest person in the room, your in the wrong room"

scouted chinese Hakathon and met other founders here. going from place to place.

hiring notes: Pablo Berlanga Boemare Nadav Shanun Binh Pham Ivan Bokarev Hiteyjit Singh Gujral Yigit Kilicoglu

read today: Excellent Advice For Living and The Nvidia Way in under 5h this was crazy speadrun. + programmed 3 applications.

war of mind: arrived in Hongkong in China. this will be an interesting visit. not because of the place, but because of the people. not because of the people that are there, but because of the people that are with me. this couold go very wrong. I figured out in the last 24h that I don't need one particular person to change the world. I'm capable and smart enough for that and I can dominate. There are a lot of smart people out there. I got so fast progress like in the last weeks not just on the last 24h. Enemies are good, to fight harder. When someone attaks me, I kill him.

I figured again out the fairness is one of the most immportant values for me. fairnes how you play, how you judge, how you deal. Things that are not fair, gives me insane outragous energy. It gives me insane pain, but insane pain as fuel.

To have said, I have so many good things right now todo i developed a lot of prompts in the flights for helpfull aplications. I saw in the last days this lightspeed mode of building and thats great. I got to this point here not by accident. I have the mind that is wired to win. I won so far nearly any game i played, I dominate the games I choose, I make my own rules, to make sure I win allways. So also know I play after my own rules. Fuck people that don't play in my game, and those who do, i will crush.

I can do everyone things that he would not imagen of himself. By understanding what a person cares of I can easily shift him in my ruleset.

Konstantin for example right now cares about his love and girlfriend, so anything related to this will have high emotional appeal to him and can be used. He also cares about learning and improving himself and it is important for him to be special. He also cares highly about his appearance (wears muscle shirts, to seam strong) and bought a lot of new expensive looking bags. All this things should be aware when you want to make him do things that he is not imagining himself of.

My goal in the next weeks should be to prepare him as best as possible and make him execute again faster.

this was only one of many examples. but by knowing what the other person cares of you have the levers in the hand. You can make the person feel anything you want to.

a other important thing is to allways shoot back fast, to be prompt, to fire back questions. When there is something you want to adress you should adress it with a question. this is the best way to get into a mind of a other person and stick. because it is a tarned atack. when you attack right away it will not go directly into the mind.

one of the greatest things to make people behave in the way you want is to say what kind of expactations you have in them.. how high your expactiations are in the other person. People want to live up to other peoples expactations, because they know they get rewarded when they reach it.

so by just telling someone you have very high expactations that he will do xyz very good... he will just do it to life up to your expactations.

one very important thing is that when you tell things and want to get that other people act on your actions you need to be super confident when you tell your things. you have to fire fast questions and use as less as words as possible.

as more words you use as more it sounds like a lie.

last: eye contact is insane when you can develop an deep eye contact it will allways work. just look someone really deep in the eye! really, really deep! and at the and of your sentence, or when you state something. you have to use deep starring at the right moments.

it is funny, but today i believe more then ever before that i will change the world. and that we will build one of the most meaningfull startups in the world. i have the mind that got wired this right way, now it is only a question of time.

Suddenly it all makes sense! It's 2am and I can not sleep, but everything makes sense.

if you want to be a leader, try to critize less and engage more.

love: when you don't have it you get crazy, when you have it you get crazy, love, why is it hurting?

Brüssel is the city for love. The city where you can feel pleasure. The city so beautiful that everyone is happy.

What a Insane day. 2,3 beers and a lot of strangers. I ran today into so many strangers and they were all so kind. I went out of the central station and talked to random people to get the route to the city center... they also were tourists and didn't had a clue! So we promptly sat together in a Bar and trank a Beer on their grades! They were 16 to 17 years old, but super smart! Then I went to a random Event I applied in the train. It was about startups and policy makers. Their I met a incredible smart women and his men (actually) the boss of the event. Because the women liked me, she invited me to a private Dinner with the other VIP guests. So after the event we were sitting in this private restaurant space and having conversations with European leaders and policy makers all over the world. Asking a lot of questiosn to a person who build several startups and is highly respected! Had good learnings of the talk with the women about women. Just give safety, attention, care. Then J left and went to my hostel... their sitting some Spanish people, beautiful girls. Was joking with them around and promptly got invited for a Beer. So we went out to a nearby pub. 8 people 3 girls 5 boys. And we had quite fun :) What a incredible. Now I lay in my hostel at 1:31. A bit trunk but fine. A adventure.

going with 203km/h through the storms of snow that is clunking on the sides of the window while listening to Hans Zimmer, an exciting life is the greatest gift that a man can ever have. Going from a small Village of a friend, to a bigger town of europe and from Brüssel to Hongkong. I'm grateful for myself. That I had all the things in the past, all the influences that made me to this person today. I'm weirdly wired now in the way that I have the chance to change the world. So it would be a shame to not try it. I have the skills, the bravery, the confidence to make my own rules, to make my own game, to win allways my game. Sometimes wonder how. And I urge to all the great pains and pleasures, the open minded parents, the loving Granparents, the annoying school kids, the fastest thinkers, the books. I believe there is nothing like free will, so I should be very, very thankful for all the influences of the past. Because it were the right influences.

I think there is no rule that I have to obbery, no border i have to be afraid of, no claim a can't make. I believe one of the greatest skills of great people is to make people do things they were not able to do by themselves. gratefully I'm blessed with that.

lesson: the most important aspect for it is to exame the other person like a nurse would do before he implants a new hart, to seek the things that make the other person emotional, to find the truths about what he cares. When you know what HE is carrying about, you can carry him around.

if you tell a other person about what you care about, he has the greatest weapon to make you do things. I allways ask strangers: What do you care about? it is such a harmless question, that can lead to so great outcomes.

"Dear May , it is good to hear, in the small village it is difficult to extract knowledge about the world. And physics is about the world. Sometimes it brings you even to other continents. I expect you know how important you can be for the world when you start doing the extra curiosity that is not in the curriculum. With this hindsight I urge you to listen to the Biography of Michelle Obama. Maybe you escape not only exams, its mainly people that holding other people cuffed. My love is them who thrive. Best, Tade"

wonderings of a 19 year old - origin of thoughts?

Before you think a thought, it must first be generated through electrical signals, which means the thought already exists before you consciously think it.

So the thought is not created by you yourself, but by something else. The subconscious.

The subconscious prepares every possible thought you could think in the present moment and brings into consciousness the one that has the highest action potential across the sum of neurons. In this way, the thought that is most likely to fit your situation is promoted into your awareness.

Thoughts are therefore just a chain of influences that have entered consciousness through certain triggers. No human is truly the master of their own thoughts. Our subconscious is the master. We can only think the things that our subconscious allows into consciousness.

How, then, do new thoughts arise?

Influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Since thoughts themselves are also influences, a thought triggers another loop:

Thought influence -> stored in the subconscious -> triggers a thought.

Thus, we can say that all our thoughts are linked to the previous thought, plus all the other influences we absorb.

This means all thoughts depend on the influences we perceive.

Through this chain, we can say that none of your thoughts simply appeared out of nowhere, but always build upon the previous thought.

Now the question arises: Was there something like an original thought, or are all our thoughts merely the result of external influences acting upon us?

In other words, are we just creatures who have never truly decided anything in life, but have been completely shaped by our environment? Is it the case that we, as our own soul, as our own person, have never had and do not have any influence over our own thoughts?

Because everything arose from external influences?

Are we merely creatures wandering around, pushing and changing one another, but unable to change ourselves?

Like a marble statue that cannot change itself, but can only be shaped by the sculptor.

Are we the same kind of marble statue, trapped within ourselves, without the ability to shape ourselves, dependent on the things that shape us?

We might say, no, I can decide which influences I accept and which I do not. But is that truly your own decision, or is it also the result of the chain of thoughts?

Is every decision you make therefore not truly coming from you, but actually formed by external influences?

What is the self? What am I?

Are we our influences?

We are our influences.

I am only your influences.

Your influences are me.

Are we different only because we have had different influences?

What would we be without our influences?

Just a body.

Does our soul arise only through the influences of others?

My soul is your influences.

Without your influences, I am soulless.

The soul does not exist.

The soul arises with influences.

Humans do not have their own soul.

It arises only through your influences.

Humans don’t have their own soul.

It only arises through your influences.

crazy.

If we actually have no free will, and everything we observe and consume ultimately shapes what we think, do we then have the power to recognize this and change our consumption habits and influences through willpower?

If we assume that 100 percent of our thoughts, and therefore our personality, are influenced by what we consume and observe, then it seems clear that the only way to influence our own thoughts and personality is to change what we consume and observe.

The problem is that you would not truly be able to decide this through free will if all the thoughts that led you to change what you consume are themselves the result of your past consumption and observations.

What do I mean by consumption and observation?

Consumption is everything you can perceive through your human senses: sight, hearing, smell, taste, and touch.

Observation is everything that enters your mind after an internal or external trigger. Most commonly, your own thoughts trigger new thoughts. It is not free will, but a chain of observations.

The only way I can explain it right now is this:

The possibility that you can think about changing what you consume and observe is itself only the result of past consumption and observations.

So you did not decide by yourself to think about this topic. It is the result of a chain reaction of your personal experiences, your past consumption and observations.

For example, the idea that you can actively change your surroundings is not truly your own discovery. It is the result of a past trigger. In my case, it was most likely a book I read, articles about the brain, and a discussion with ChatGPT that led to an understanding of the brain and then to conclusions about free will.

With that conclusion, new neurons fired and brought from the unconscious into consciousness the thought:

“I can only change my surroundings to change what I think and who I am.”

But do I have free will to decide how I will change my surroundings? Not really.

All your thoughts about how and why to change your surroundings are also just a conglomerate of your past experiences.

It feels like you have the free will to change your surroundings, but in reality, you do not.

Does this mean your entire life is predetermined because you cannot change anything through actual willpower?

You could say yes. There is no way to change your intentions by your own will.

However, there are infinitely many possibilities, so it is not possible to predict your life precisely. There is also great uncertainty about which other people will trigger which forms of consumption and observation in you.

The most predictable impact on your life likely comes from the people you interact with. All of them shape your personality by triggering neurons to fire.

So you do not have free will to change things unless you are triggered from the outside. You must observe or consume something that creates change.

It is like this paper. You would not be thinking about why and how to change who you interact with without the trigger of reading this page right now.

You could argue that once you understand this, it is an advantage. More importantly, it may be a duty to spread it. Because the moment someone else reads it, they have the possibility of being triggered and therefore of changing something in their life.

I believe it is a positive trigger. A trigger that can help people move forward in life. Because they can then change what they observe and consume, ideally toward better influences.

It is not their free will that creates change. It is the trigger combined with their past experiences.

You could say that the moment you enter the world, your life is already framed. Every thought after your first neuron fires is connected to and shaped by what came before.

Your first neurons begin firing around week five of pregnancy as an embryo. From that point on, you are exposed to what you consume and observe.

That leads to your thoughts.

Your thoughts lead to your personality.

We are simply the accumulation of past experiences combined with current triggers.

stuff i read in the last months:

Steve Jobs Biography + every youtube interview (80h) + all other writings from him + Becoming Steve Jobs

Charly Munger Biography + a lot of lectures and speeches (10h)

Nikola Tesla Biography + Autobiograpy + research about inventions

Napoleon Bonaparte Biography

John D. Rockefeller Biography

Robert Iger Biography

Mattthew McConaughy Biography

Marc Randolph Biography

Barack Obama Biography

Warren Buffet Biography + lectures + shareholder meetings (15h)

Tony Fadell (Build)

Project Hail Mary (Sci-Fi)

The Meaning of it All (Richard Feynman)

High Output Management (Andy Grove)

The Inevitable (Kevin Kelly)

Super Founders (Ali Tamaseb)

Crossing the Chasm (Geoffrey A. Moore)

The Diary of a CEO (Steven Bartlett) + all behind the scenes things, internall things everything we could see about podcasts (90h) ++ 100h of podcasts with him

Adolf Hitler Biography

Ren Zhengfei Biography (House of Huwai)

Jeff Bezos Biography (Amazon unaufhaltsam)

Benjamin Franklin Biography + Autobiography

Henry Ford Autobiography

Alber Einstein Biography

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Foundation (Isaac Asimov)

I robot (Isaac Asimov)

The story of China (Micheal Wood)

Elon Musk Biography + all youtube videos from him + all Speeches (90h) + all written stuff from him + all high viewed company videos from SpaceX, Tesla, Neuralink, Boring (70h)

Nearly all Paul Graham Essays

Peter Thiel (Zero To One) + Peter Thiel lectures (10h) + Peter Thiel biography (max chafkin)

Ray Dalio (Principles for Dealing with chaning world order)

Flow (Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi)

Phil Knight Autobiography (Nike)

Ray Croc Autobiography (MC donalds)

Richard Branson Autobiography (screw it lets do it)

Jack Ma Biography (Alibaba)

Arnold Schwarzenecker Autobiography

Bill Gates Autobiography (Source code) + all old videos of microsoft and him (20h)

The Innovaters Dillema (Christen claytonsen)

Mr. Beast internall playbook + all behind the scenes stuff

Atomic Habits (James Clear)

Hjalmer Schacht Autobiography

A simple guide to since (Isaac Asimov)

humanity: humanity will need to go into the universer deeper and deeper to meet with other life forms to learn from them to overcome the challanges ahead that we don't know of yet. It will be the greatest adventure in mankind so far, we have to develop trade routes to other alien species and information exchange with intelligent life on other planets. It is very likely that they use completely different energy sources, completely different materials, completely different food. We can use this to bring our own technology forward.

for us as humanity it is the next major step that we have to get right. protect our earth and build up the solar system around us. it is crucial to make it a steady progress that allwas keeps going one. It needs to create big industries so more mony driven people want to spend time building things for it. We should make sure to haervest water (energy) as fast as possible in space, we also need to grow food and animals on other planets as fast as possible. We have to research new ways of propellent and ways to increase a speed of a spaceship to travel faster and further. We have to geoingeneer moon and mars so there is less faliure points. We should make permanent space bases where everyone could just go, like a plain ticket. We should develop good food for space and make space visits a usiall thing to highly keep excitement up. We should invest billions in space education for small children and make schools that just focus on making you from birth to 18 years old a good space flighter and fighter to overcome the biggest challanges we have in space. We need to develop small personal spacecrafts, that can stay in a hunger nearby GEO, so people can own and rent it. We have to make people want to use their own spacecraft as everyone else. Personal spacecrafts will give people the capabilitys to be creative and we will have way higher progress, because we have a lot of random people up there that do random stuff. in the moment we give a person autonomy with a personal spacecraft, we give him autonomy to explore by himself.

we should develop a good method to get out of the Athmosphare of the earth, so we don't allways have this risk of exploding rockets on ground here and the supper wastefull fuel burn.

there should be an elevator or something to a LEO / GEO station. Earth has enough material to build this.

humanity has to make earth and earth living great and go to other stars. humanity has not to die before we not found other aliens! we have to connect, I want to talk to other intelligent life forms, from other planets!

booked rn the trains to brüssel. I will go there in two days. so long I have time to think here. my life is incredible... I go to so many countries, thats huge. I learn every day... every day the things i want. I live my life. I'm with friends. I have fun... all this things. it is insane.

i feed my brain with creativity food. Sci-Fi is one of the best on the large scale thinkings... feed your brain with the things that it should output. nurrish it like a plant, only the inputs are what brings outputs, there is no unique or unknown new idea generation in our brain... it all comes from what you put in. Our brain is just a special Computer that can use what you input and compute it. but when you input trash it also has only trash to compute.

today i started reading some science fiction. I contacted some Dermatologie people to fix dandruff. I thought about the world. what problems need to get solved. I watched founder podcasts, from sam, elon, tesla and some other tech related stuff. i played dart with ludwig, we constructed the dart board on the wall, what a fun.

the greatest time is now. sometimes you feel that nothing is happening, but instead everything is happening now. you grow yourself to the highst of tomorrow by laing good moral, educational fundament today. today to lay the ground for tomorows scyscrapers, today you plant the seeds for tomorrows corn, today you oberve the world for tomorrows mind. the day today is the most relevant for your future.

so treat it sparse. treat it with high value and think twice if that what you do today is the things that you want to shape your tomorrow's.

make living on earth as beautiful as possible, go to other planets and make the same for them.

it is really random to see people that are stuck into one place. They are also bound with their mind to their place... This is crazy. it makes so much difference where you are. so when you don't want to be stuck with your thinking. Don't stay to long at one place. Because otherwise you will get lost.

This lostness, nobody can help you with. If you not want to become them, don't stay long. you will become them. You will become the people that are around you. We are not self minded, we are not self driven. you will become what you observe. because it is the only trigger that goes into your head. it is the only thing that comes into you. we have no free will. so the things that shape us is what we observe.

first night at ludwigs place done. it is a small village, he lives here with his girl. they are cute. they love each other. love is great. they play music, they learn for school. they are here with 60 other students. me feeling good but also stuck here. it is small nothing happens. a good place to come to yourself. no listening to expresionissmus music (1907 started)... and thinking about impressionismus (1890) started. it is so interesting to see all this things, connect with my own world model. and to see how stupid these people in school learn. they learn for tests, exams, not for live. they don't connect knowledge to their inner world model, to their inner thoughts. they have no intrinsic motivation for learning. dropping out of school was one of the most important things to actually truly learn and don't get behindert from school to learn for live. school hinders you in learning for longterm, by giving you the incentives in the shortterm. school don't gives you a A when you understood something and conected it to your world model and stored it for the longterm, school just gives you a A when you know something in the moment, in the snapshot. thats the flaw. I love learning. I learn every day. as much as possible. it is great.

also i think about, I have this urgency, I want to start today.. want to invent today tomorrow there is allways this urgency.

now I'm here in this small village in and it feels good, but bad for my urgency. there are so many questions.. what is the most important problem to solve for humanity? what is the best place to change the world? is there a best place? or is it the earth in generall? what is the best person who should help me.. etc. etc. live ist a mystery that keeps getting longer, when you solved a part.

I'm very proud of my learning diary. it is the most expensive, valuable, thing i have. it is the thing I care most of. i think a learning diary and reading biografies ist the best thing to learn and understand life.

life is beatifull and full of adventure. adventure keeps you young.

yesterday in the ICE I met a 71 year odl guy. He was a professor at the TUM... but also a high level Siemens engineer for long time and had projects all over the world. he started his own company and helped his sons also with it. He made other researchers famous and talked 2h about life with him. He just loved life. And therefore he was fit. Young. He just was positive minded. He had his own flying license and still flew plains with 71. He told me that in the worst moments often the most powerfull thing is just a smile.

I talked with him about humanity, energy and water. About what is important in the future. He said. the most important thing that he trys to say to young people is encouragment to just be bold, to just start.

I also repaired my phone yesterday at a samsung store. interesting, I was not pissed of to pay 120€ it was just a thing. got today a 100€ gutschein from samsung... everything comes back. yesterday I left hiteyjits place. I learned there what it means be gastfreundlich. They where insane gastfreundlich. probs to the mother of him, she was incredible. Also the dad, he didn't judged, the most impressed me.. that the dad explained a problem that he right now faces in the work... and said. maybe you have ideas guys at the evening table. that was the coolest thing I ever saw a dad doing. it was so encouriging to think about his real world problem in uncommen tech ways.. to try to solve it. it gave the feeling that we can do everything. when you want to encourage people to think... just state the technical problems you face at the evening table and let everyone actually comment, brainstorm about it. thats fun.

it is interesting to see things after you got perspective. now I was in Germany for 10 days and appreciate San Francisco more. There is a certain global care, a certain care for humanity, a certain art in building things, that I just only experienced in San Francisco so far. Here a lot of people just think about making money. which is fine, but it is not thinking on a bigger level. in San Francisco a lot of people where driven by making money, but they cared also about the meaning a lot.

in the last days I lived in a room at Hiteyjits place in Munich. Great family, this was great visit. I felt like the holy guest. I think back in the days, when people traveled, this was allways like this. You as an guest, got the highest priority. I liked this. We should treat guest more often like this. We should be good guest.

A guest is only a good guest, when he let himself getting served and is showing is thankfullness with high gratitude. Beeing a thankfull guest is not easy. Because your job is to make the people that serve you feel good. but it created great pleasure for you and your servers when done well.

tipp about guesting:

• allways give the admiration to the person that actually made the things. when you have something that taste good, find the cook that made it, when your room is preetty find the person that designed it. Don't give the host the gratitude give it to the actuall maker.

Yeah, so I'm just sitting right now, it's 1 am, in a bed here at my grandmother's, and just thinking a bit about life. What is the most important thing? It lasts like two days. I figured out that when you share your knowledge, you learn more of it than probably the person that you shared with, and that it's so crucial to have a positive-minded thinking and you don't complain. You're mainly thinking about how to make it great and I hate people that always think about money. I hate people that always think about every decision being driven by "can I afford it?" and "do I have enough money?"

I had some experiences today and like all these small people they are all talking about yeah this is cheap so this is a cool thing or this is expensive so this is a bad thing. The whole mindset is only around if something is cheap or not. It speaks for itself when you only hunt for cheap things, you will have a cheap life and cheap lives don't make fun. I want an exciting adventure. I'm living for an adventure. I'm living for changing the world. I'm living for making humanity greater. I'm living for doing things that other people never would dream of. I figured out I really want to spend all my lifetime on it. I don't care about optimizing for pleasure. I don't care about optimizing for comfort.

I was like today skiing and it's boring. Skiing is boring. Skiing is lame. I want to do things that are meaningful. I want to do things that are crazy, so crazy that people think they are nearly impossible. I just right now watched a behind-the-scenes of the MrBeast Games 2 and it's such an inspiring incredible thing to see how big you can make things and how great things can be. So everything can be bigger. I would say in the last month, especially in San Francisco, I developed a very good feeling for pain. I am very used to painful situations, so my threshold of pain went more up. I think this is one of the most important things for founders because a company is kind of like a filter for pain for problems. Because all the easy problems get solved by the people in the structure, your people that you hired, and only the hardest problems get to you. So you get daily only the hardest problems that nobody else in your company could solve. It's kind of like you're walking into this room of fire every day and it's burning and you need to figure things out. You can't run out screaming; you have to figure it out.

I'm really surprised but also I know that my brain is kind of wired in this weird way, so I have the obligation to also use it in a very helpful way. There was this girl called Eve and she really annoyed me because she pressured my ego. She was like "not doing what I wanted" and normally I can make people do what I want, but she was different. One of the things that she tested in me is "what is actually the most important thing?" And what I wanted to say is "I have this high brain pain pressure but the things that still annoy me are like women's stuff". So maybe this will change some day, but this is like one of the hardest tests right now.

It's also insane how much the difference is when you actually pursue greatness and don't settle on the average.

How small the world is, and that the whole world is developed by humans. That Misa Beast, Elon Musk, and Bill Gates aren't super humans, they're still humans, and that when they got there as a human, you can too.

That it is kind of a thing of like learning, it is just how fast you learn, and the best thing to learn is like to be curious. So I'm really proud that I learn special things, I learned things that nobody else learns because I didn't attend at university, and I see more and more the value of it.

So thank you, thank you for this wiring in my head.

Some stuff that happened today:

• I was like very early, standing up and went with my dad skiing.
• It was fun, but it was not this kind of fun because I knew that I could also learn and grow in this time.
• This is like cool and But I hate it I hate it to don't grow and learn.
• So when we came back I listened to the biography of Hjalmar Schacht that back in the Nazi time made was like in the Reichsbank president.
• I listened to some Charlie Munger speeches, I listen to his speech from a Navy SEAL.
• I took to behind the watch the Behind the Diaries series stuff and not behind the Diary, Mr. Beast behind mr. beast.
• I don't know it feels good, It feels good, It feels good.
• Now it is 1 am, and I just would love to not sleep and just grow faster and faster.

learnings:

• Deprival superreaction syndrome is insane strong... when you thought you had something allready and then loose it is kind of as painfull as when you actually lost something you allready had. I'm aware of this, but there is no way to avoid it even in the moment I'm aware of it, it is painfull.

• take it slowly with women. before you attack, before you have to find out everything, every motivation, every situation, every backround... only then you know how to attack best and pull it of. data is key... if you don't have enough data, attacks are based on luck. It is better to take longer time and gather data...

• navigate in the right direction. don't play to offensive. make her admire you, don't be the dog that is bagging for food. then you allready lost.

• be confident in yourself and don't praise to much. But praise the things you think are truly true.

it is interesting and weird... and it is better to have a women as a friend when you want a girlfriend then playing offensive and crashing the relationship. because the women as your friend knows other womens, which could lead to other introductions and gives higher odds of discovering new unknown territory. so when you play slow and gather more data, you not only can prepare a attack better, but the likelyhood of meeting a new perfect girlfriend increases exponentially with every women friend you also make on the way.

don't waste your time!

okay fuck you

met Eve. she is the brightest mind I ever met. She will change my life. She will become my wife. nature brought me the diamond I was searching for.

bin wieder in DD... nach 6 Monaten high tech, English speaking society. It's kind of insane how small the world is today.

we don't need to wait anymore 5/10 years for having a big travel to a other country. It is easy to just book a flight straight away. This is easy.

Recoreded a podcast with my grandmother and grandfather so my kids can some day see it and know what they were up to.

Currently sitting in the wonderfull building of the "Kulturpalast"... were here often for concerts. this is one of the best places in Dresden to see a lot of young people working. This is great. here are still young people grinding. maybe not grinding to change to world. but at least grinding to change their own lives.

I had on the farm of my mom a very good conversation with my mom about the world models of us, of us crazy people that think they can improve humanity forward. it was very interesting, learned a lot by just telling what I think. This is really unique. Also figured out by myself by telling it that the most important thing to learn fro a vounder is to overcome shit. to don't run out in panic when there is a burning fire. but to try to extinguish it. this is the single most important trade. grid and not giving up + overcoming pain. high pain, high high pain. So the last 6 months were a good learning of this. learning of how to overcome certain pain. Of how to deal with situations were other people would be hopeless. learning about what to do when you have no money.

it tough a lot. and it was insane helpful.

now sitting here between 100 students in the library shows me again how unique the stuff is. I follow my own curicullum, my own rules, my own way. but with uniqueness comes more pain. and I don't want to say that these students do not also suffer some day. but, but they have more certainty. and uncertainty is one of the greatest pains for the mind.

for me it is adventure.

tomorrow we go back to Germany (DD). weird, to go somewhere and speak english again. weird to go somewhere were most of the people build agencies and b2b saas. but we will see. it feels good, but also weird. we will se what happens.

but in the last days looked a bit around the profile pictures of old friends and class people... they live a different life. it is really interesting to see. I think i grew a lot in the last year, learned a lot. it feels weird this days when other people say they build the million dollar empire. for me it is brining humanity forward.... and it will be automatically a billion dollar contribution. it is less about earning the money for the earnings sake, it is more about bringing humanity forward. helping intelligence grow forward, helping humanity just survive and go bigger and bigger...

human intelligence has to evolve greater and greater and explore the universe and above. we have to bring our selves forward, we have to bring the human race forward. Humanity is really unique, when you look at all the other animals around us, none of them are as creative as we are. so we should evolve humanity to greater greatness to keep this creativity alive.

humanity should evolve.

I feel fresh, strong again. I fucked polytopia. today made 3 pages for the pain magazin. I think there is a lot to do in this world. :) Where outside in the sun. there were a group of people (23 people) that were playing music together. just strangers in the park, it is allways on Saturday there... this was really nice. So yeah, we went to the park and I was there sitting, and it was a really beautiful scene because all these people were just playing music there, and they don't really know each other, but it was really magical. I was sitting there with my laptop a bit like a stranger, but it was kind of good. I worked on the Pain Magazine, 3 pages for the Pain Magazine, and this was really nice.

I was also listening to the biography of Nikola Tesla and walked around in the park, saw all these people, and I realized again that all these people are not connected in the real world; they're connected in the digital world (like on social media) everywhere. A lot of them are lonely in the real world; they don't have the connection, the interaction is missing.

Everyone is like listening to their own music, has their own headphones in, and has no clue what other people do, no clue what other people think, no clue what the other people are actually good at and what problem they have.

So you see all these people looking in front of their black box called phone, and everyone is in their own digital world. I assume like people spend way more than 8 hours a day in the digital world interacting with people all over the world, but not with the people right next to them.

This was one of the things I was thinking of: that having love in the world is actually a really good thing, and that we have less and less love and sex and therefore less reproduction. I have it by myself, like the thinking of having someone that you love and that loves you. It's like a really human thing, so in my opinion, it's something that we should not lose as humanity because it will lead to a more robotic and less human-like world.

If we want to tackle things like space travel, space living, and going and understanding the universe, we should still be happy because the greatest work was done with a bit of happiness and humor. So for that, we need more real-world connection.

I think the main problem of it is that in the digital world, we are used to having all this background information about the person before we meet him or before we interact with this person. We can look on LinkedIn or on Google or Instagram, all his background things, what he's interested in, who he likes, what I like, what his problems are. In the real world, we don't have this. We have kind of uncertainty. When you meet a new person, you don't know anything about the person. When you see a person on the other side of the street, you don't know anything. So it's uncertainty, and as we know, uncertainty is worse than bad certainty.

There is this great Uber example where they just delete the uncertainty of how long your taxi needs to come to you, and it's better to know for you when you know that it's taking 10-15 minutes that it comes to you, then when you don't know that it's in 4 minutes there. Uncertainty is a really big thing for our human brain, and when we have the same as uncertainty in the real world when we approach other persons, it makes sense that we are used to the internet where we have all information, and that we then also do our main interactions on the internet because it is less uncertain.

To solve the problem of loneliness, we need to bring less uncertainty into our interaction in the real world. We need that you and me know some information, some common shared knowledge, already before you interact with me in the real world. The problem is, we cannot see them right now. We don't know what the other person on the other side of the street is doing, how he is earning his money, what problems he has, if he is a single or not. The uncertainty is there.

And this is not only a small problem for some people, but it's a problem for humanity because when you have less real-world interactions, we have less love, which leads to less sex, which leads to less kids. We see clearly in the data. It is predicted that in 2050, human society is on the tipping point, it's on the peak of birth rates, and then we decline again. This is bad. We should grow; we should still grow as humanity, and one of the reasons is that in most of the Western countries or older countries (China, US, Europe, Japan) they have declining birth rates.

One of the things is that we don't interact with so many people every day anymore because we are more individualistic. We meet less people. We have more technology, we have more money, and therefore we are more in our self-owned world with tech.

In the poor countries, they don't have this, so they are forced to interact. We in the Western world have an easy way to interact with other humans via social media via the internet. This storm leads to things that we see in the trends. We see clearly a trending decline of birth rates, and there are some people that do already something against it (Musk is like having 14 kids and other people that have a lot of kids), but this is not the solution.

The solution needs to be that everyone has more kids again, everyone is happier, and everyone has more love.

what do I want: a girlfriend. a true problem. a mission to save humanity. a billion dollar company.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP.

talked yesterday longer with zion... he has contact to steven bartlett and one of elons friends was his mentor. the world is small. thinking today about what is most important for humanity to solve. to do? why is this in a weird way so difficult but also easy?

took a walk a listened to some bach. play polytopia with konstantin and zion. i will win.

cutted video for Zion nearly ready. Me started making 3d things in AR. having now pain Magazin. Made podcast yesterday. thinking about problems that are pain for humanity.

oh and there is one more... give me a fucking insurance that is fair payed + has insanly good customer service! all insurance (especially health insurance) has horrible customer service! automate claim processing and fraud detection with AI. build it. i will found when you reach out to me and have money.

same for tax advisors. currently we pay 4k a year with our gmbh for a german tax adivor, what a bullshit?!... this can be fully automated and driven by software + AI, someone needs to build the frontend AI and the backend software that automates the "jahresabschluss and sortierung"... and have a Tax Advisor license.

also i just want a personal lawyer that i can talk to everytime and that is sending out messages for me so they seem legit... why can not somody build an ai lawyer + backend system that can send out legit lawyer terms emails and that can allways support me. for example mahung xyz.. but you don't have to pay for reason xyz... normally the big company allways wins against me. but when I would have a legit lawyer then not anymore... so just someone have to build a legit AI lawyer with a working backend and lawyer license.

fixing german ICE wifi might be actually meaningfull for some germans.

it's a new year. 2026. filmed today again with Zion to make some money. I'm still thinking what is the most important thing to work on in my life right now... living here the kind of moovie that people know from founders. but in real. beeing with my best friend in San Francisco, learning, working all day long... Couch surfing. I'm in AR now at the edge of technology, i know what is missing. good applications. so I could build something that matters to humantiy there. but is it actually the biggest? also fun that zion is basicly building what I had in my head allready 8 months ago. (datawallet). we play a really surreal game, because one win, will be worth billions but no win is allways complete loose. it's assymetric. played yesterday some soccer with some higschool kids. enjoy highschool, becuase it is not so long as you think. but i learned again and again, that health is important. today I have muskelkater.

Invest in Memes – No One Rides Elevators… if you can’t say it in a meme to customers, recruits, and capitalists … no one is going to care. Messages and positioning need to be ready to be transmitted through memes / in short repeatable clips (that are compelling to share).

AR is the future... because everything gets more clean. you will have no real buttons, no real inputs anymore... everything is just there with software.... Your watercocker can get updates over night and get better... can get more buttons... it is the next wave for hardware to make them interactable with AR.

Dear Tade,

It’s pretty hard to say in the abstract - a lot depends on your specific skills, passions, and ideas for what would be commercially viable.  Also, you’d have to consider the timing of automation possibilities in case AI timelines are short.  I’d say in general things that make the world more cooperative or that makes the human-AI relationship more positive sum could be promising - but what that means in practice largely remains to be figured out.  There might also be opportunities somewhere in speeding the use of a given level of AI capabilities for beneficial applications (such as for health or for improving human deliberation or discourse).

Good luck!

Nick

The future of humanity needs tl ve preserved, we are just so great beeings.

Today: Read Biogrfie for 5h. Podcast about elon 1,30h. Future of Humanty and existential risk of swedish researcher, read paper from him. Posted 10 LinkedinPosts. Articles about humanities biggest problems. Email to swedish forscher.

played today for 9h until 6am civilisation VI, completely stupid. now deinstalled everything. it does not bring me forward to build meaningfull stuff. it is just stupid timewaste. it is also not fun. it is just stupid timewaste

LinkedIn is like Clash of Clans... A game where you have to upgrade sruff and attack the algorythm. Lets see until which "Rathaus" i come.

porn is sometimes still in my mind. Not good.

Today we made a new demo day in the hacker house where we couchsurf right now. It is now 1:02am I'm still crystall clear and sharp minded I again ate to much coffee beans, crack for the cheep. But it is awesome, I'm so sharp with it. I bought today again a new one. Konstantin is writing on his paper how to create great companies, I was working on posting 20 LinkedIn posts, they got some good tracktion (one with 10k impressions and one with 30k).

We made a walk in the San Francisco bay park and I saw a family singing Christmas songs, I joined them for 3 songs and sang heilige nacht still nacht on English with them. They where impressed by my good voice. We also today did something that we do very seldom, watch something just for joy... we watched MR.Bean at christmas! Insane, it is art on the highest level.

I also kept reading my biographies and learning about tech.

In my learning diary today: Charlie Chaplin: "Life is a tragedy in close-up and a comedy in long shot."

Good speeches and propaganda has one clear enemy that gets attacked multiple times... a good speech focuses only on one enemy.

Some thoughts:

Germany is still the 3 largest economy by total gdp output after US and China... But we are more and more lacking behind. I made some research over the last days. What I found out was that we are very good in engineering and also in heavy manufacturing, we are good in services in general for worldwide B2B, but what is missing are the big tech consumer players that have high margin with software and data. We have no Google, Meta, Microsoft, Apple, LinkedIn, Snapchat, (YouTube)... when I think of stuff that I use on my phone there is no big German / European player. Why does it matter? because they are the high margin business models and they have the data...

So we in Germany miss the big tech consumer software players.

Secondly I was thinking what is the problem for me of starting a startup in Germany right now? I found two major points.

First: I cannot fire someone fast (if you read biographies of great founders, this was always crucial) the employee has in Germany to many rights that you have not the ability to kick out people of the team fast. Because as we know one spoiled apple spoils very fast all other apples - same for teams.

Second: People in Germany are not anymore used to suffering and working 6–7 days a week, they also want to enjoy life. I feel this is still different here in the US, where you can pay people 750k a year salary but then they also grind all night long.

I was curious about what you think about it...?

Because you seem like thinking a lot about Europe and Germany and how to speed up progress again.

it's basically penetrating a wall with a hamour and when you just take a hit everyday it is only a matter of time when the wall brakes. trust in time.

add: I texted also the 6th time person from tokenize It to cancel the contract with them that every month leads us to pay 580€ randomly to them.

And i figured out... I just will keep messaging them until they cancel it. I don't care how often they say no. they said allready 8 times no, and if it's one more 8 times. I don't care. and I figured out this gives enourmous power and strenght. Because I know over time they will give up and I will win. To learn that you just have to keep beeing stubborn is the greatest weapon was allready so often helpfull for me. and you then can get everything.

I hope nobody will read this here... if so, please keep it for you.

today is christmas, and I worked yesterday until 3am and woke up at 10 today... my family is celebrating in germany. I started working on LinkedIn posts yesterday. I posted 10 to test what might work and what not. then I delete the bad performing and only keep the good performing... and analyze why they performed good, to get better.

Also yesterday was the first day after 7-8 months where I am at Zero "schulden" again. We had for 3 hours a long conversation, me and konstantin over money and then made everyting set to zero his bank accounts and my. We cleaned everything up. deleted bank accounts so everyone of us has only one.

oh, one more thing, people at arcadia didn't liked us anymore. So we called 15 friends to take us over on a couch and got to one new place after some struggle with the bart. We are now near the San Francisco Golden Gate Park, actually really beatifull. Yesterday at 23:00 we went to a grocery shop, everything was raining and we bought for 110 Dollars groceryies and made the best chicken wings with rice and coconut milk sauce ever. We ate them like people that did not ate for a long time a good meal (was actually also true, we didn't ate over the past week something) because of lack of money. so this was a meal from heaven. How could we bought the stuff?? we got the first payment of the deal with Zion to make a video production for him for 6k.

Yeah so time here is kind of painfull but also the greatest ever. it is freedom.

I also finished the Benjamin Franklin Autobiographie and Biographie. Now I started a 44h Biography of Adolf Hittler. It is interesting to see how he catched and captivated the masses.

We figured out that we can listen to every audiobook on nearly 2-3x and get things so fast done this day.

I also started to love coffee beans. I allways just eat them raw. They are like crack for me. But hopefully not so devistating.

We are still searching for meaning. But the fog gets clearer.

Oh and the 10 posts i made yesterday got today allready 7k impressions, this is good for analyzing.

today I work on the spectacles AR glasses application.

Yesterday I wrote a long letter to my other grandparents that I normallly don't do so much..

Sex is still missing.

this will be the first day of the days where I take more care about how I write what I write here... I be carefull is one of the most important trades to make something great. I decided that this here, I want to be something great. something with real inner thoughts, struggles, emotions and inteligence. so let's start:

"Greenlight" today i got a new greenlight, suddenly in my bank account was standing +300€ and there was no other way, then that it came from them. from the most loving grandparents I have. Money: money makes you happy when you have no money. money makes your actions bigger, when you have allready money. money is a measurement of how much value you bring to the world. so when you earn low money, you bring low value to humanity. So it is guid to thrive for money, because you only become a lot if you bring value for humanity. I think people don't want to believe this. because they are envy. money also makes you not a bad or a good person. money just amplifies everything that is in your personality. and since every human has a dark side, oyu just think that these people are more mean or do more bad, but in reality they just play a bigger game and therefore their dark side is also bigger. MONEY JUST EMPLIFIES, it is like a good Megaphone, the megaphone doesn't make you ssay good or bad things, it is still the person behind it. But the megaphone makes you hear this things louder. So when the person has dark thoughts, you hear them louder. When the person has good thoughts you here them louder.

And since humans are trained to see the bad things, or the enemy's better then the good sides of something we just get lost focusing on bad stuff of rich people. Therefore a lot of people don't like rich people.

They don't understand the law of amplifying.

today something weird happened. We got Money. and it is interesting how fast you then come into the mode of spending it.

i got today a christmas present from my dad via amazon, we now interact more again with each other, this is good.

i bought books from people to learn more about history, I bought Benjamin Franklin, Adolf Hittler and some other biographies. "I would allways spent money for a good book".

flights to germany still 340€

flights to germany still 370€.

I watched yesterday a doku about how the iphone actually got produced. Learning: "everything is a process", there where no such thing like one great Idea of the iphone and then they build it... it was a konstant struggle with it and refinemend, refinemend over a long period of time. so basically everything is just a process. every great thing that we think got invented from one smart person, was just a long process with a lot of smart people involved in it.

Everything is a process.

no sitting here in the Haas in Berkely, everything empty, I'm the single one student here. there are no other people on the whole campus. everything empty.

today got clear that I will be for the first time in history not with my family at christmas. This is like a migratory bird that went south alone to find the right place to life and love. it is not easy. and it is painfull.. it is the rule of everything. You allways want what you not have, and you appreciate it more if you have less from something. These days I appreciate my family more then ever before. I'm proud, loved and in love with them. But still beeing here in US to catch more greenlights.

what should change in the world? Humanity should not die. Humanity should further develop and get stronger. Humanity should be happy.

the only difference between people writing an exam and us is that we get our grade not direct afterwards. Our exam is building the greatest consumer brand and company out there to make billions of lives better. I truly believe this is my meaning of life.

second day where we slept on the couch here in frontier tower: elon musk "i think if you want to start a company you have to have a high trashhold of pain"

looking everything about the best entrepeneurs.. how they worked, what they learned, analyzed and read biografies of all of them.. together with konstantin we look every old possible video of elon, steve, lary ellison and everyone that created great companies.

how they get teams together, what they focus on, how they showcase products... etc... how they speak. It's like we are doing what people normally do before they have to write an exam. they learn everything they can about the topic. We do it for great companies.

my plan: finish filming job, programm AR glasses, go to snap office get AR glasses, go 24. to germany, meet family, programm more AR experience, go to munich, show it Darius, get 50k, go to bali, then india, then china, build first janta product.

i want a bit more movie type shit again. what do you think?

stories to tell: -birthday present from konstantin (cake with arcadians) -4 chicken in bag party + morning Eli with gun -china dinner with chinese guys -china clothing brand office idk there are more.

there are some simple things to get more confident that allways work: fresh haircut skincare workout smile +travel

had today call with doug, sales call with zion to make production video for them... Konstantin yesterday made like for 350$ a some design work. I feel motivation again. I see a small stripe on the horizont.. the fog is getting less dense. isnt it interesting.

I could go home for christmas theoretically? lol. and today something weird happened. darius called me, he actually appreciates my willingness to do things that other people would not do. he actually was one of the single people that would bet on me, when others think controversal. I highly value this. he would invest 50k with his new fund when we get the thing running and can showcase him the social interaction app. thats motivating... also what is the win in the game of products... the win is developing faster in silents then anybody als and then release something insane great with a big bang. the big bang is the moment where you can be proud. so there is no other way to play the game. just build it until it is so good that you have to show it to people. I finally figured it out, what the game it is that we crafters, sellers, builders, play.

isn't it interesting?

I watched yesterday all the old videos with konstantin and we experiences a lot. actually a lot. this is awesome.

there is light on the horizon.

life is kind of weird. it is the first time that I will maybe not have christmas together with my fam? or maybe not? when we have fast enough some cash in idk, 5k or somoething i would go for it. maybe there is actually a way to do it. I have tomorrow a call with a guy for christmas video stuff. I will close with him the deal and then we will go to germany for christmas.

but in generall it is actually interesting what life does with you, when you try to change the world. but also don't know yet what... what is important? love, friends, experiences, impact.. money, what is not important? dump people. but actually there are a lot of people in the void. and less people that actually build. konstanin is a builder. he is doing stuff very fast and just build them. appreciate this.

a good haircut is worth millions of self confidence.. so buy it :) Saw the girl that I was looking for over the last weeks... went to her, asked her, got a "I have a boyfriend", but feels good. Now uncertenty is away. Uncertenty is way harder than getting a "no". Nice.

struggling around with uncertainty is really painful. But i figured out that most of the great people had this period. I talked with Spencer Kinney, he was in this for two years straight before now he had something that seems to work out with the greatest investors in the bay area you can get. He started working on 4 completely different things before. Same story I heard from Sophie Defauw, he know founders that changed a lot and then built the successful wolrd changing thing. We are playing here a power law game... so everything will feel like failure... and success is unimaginable 1000x bigger. So there is nothing like everage pain and everage succes. this game is eather you are in the state of death or you win very, very big.

we changed the location from Berkely Arcadia to 20 min walks away Berkeley Hills. Thanks to Eli AI-Shamari, he lets us stay at his founder co-living here in the mountains for free for two weeks. We still have a shortage of money, but I still told the girl that I met yesterday and we walked the fire trails around to see the whole buty of berkely and San Francisco in Moonlight, that some day "I will change the lives of millions of people", but she had a friend. But like men do, they think this doesn't matter so I was trying to poje here out of the relationship, not so good. So we went back, but we talked about live, sex and mission and it was kind of cool, maybe around 7°C. Eli made here a big party and we had firsthand the standart american experience. One guy called Shaileesh brought 4 chickens in a bag with him.. other people brought wine and coocies and we created ginger bred houses. Still most of the time im thinking about what is truly true. What changes the world.

today in the morning I stood up and went upstairs to the living room and the first thing that I see is Eli with a gun shooting coca cola cans - America I guess. Second one was I called the two 14 year old girls to coach them in the right direction. And then Konstantin cutted my hair, no I look like a half chinese but german boy with "Topfschnitt".

Berkely is such a oddly place. Sitting at strada, walking around the law school, seeing the bell tower and all this young people. I called yesterday in the night the mom of the girl that I talked with... she lived in Dresden 20 years ago. Now she is an AI tutor at deepmind, together with his husband. His doughter really impressed me, but she has a friend.?

no I'm sitting here, it feels a bit like a switzerland alps Hut, in the hills with great view and the friends you work and party together. I'm really thankfull to have such an experience rich life.

had today a good talk with my mother also about china and us... I'm really thankfull of beeing so close with my mom.

also there were this Lary Ellison talk when he was young... He was also in Berkely :) Same for steve Jobs... he was in Berkely... Same for xyz. so many great people have a relationship to berkely, I Like it.

also there was this girl today at strada... I watched here, I saw here allready again 4 times before there.. today I putted a self painted business card in her back. maybe she will message me maybe not. I don't have the expactations for it, so I only can win.

now I'm sitting on the roof of the law school seeing the sun and listening to the only 01099. "ich bin auf dem weg keine zeit zu verlieren... sag wie soll es anders sein?"

Berkeley is the best place in the world to search with this 8 Billion other humans for the meaning of life. It seems like that everyone, age 57, age 38, age 28, age 21, age 18, age 15 are looking for it.

We all suffer with it, we all search for meaning, we all search for a place in a world. And everybody thinks that he is the only person that faces this... THIS IS WRONG. I founder that everyone is at enytime in search of meaning and the correct answers for life. Which leads to the "erkenntnis" that it is allways like this... that I have to like it. because I will otherwise hate my whole life. Thankyou Wolfram Thurm for this opening thoughts.

Today happened also something very special. the first time since two years my dad become a HERO for me again. He was one of the major people that built a School from scratch in Dresden for 50 Million Euros. This is insane.. He lead two of his kids to the best magicians in their age groups in germany. I'm finally proud of him again for something - which brings me to tears. I'm really proud when I hear this.

Having parents that are Hero's feels as is one of the most important thing.

He constructed kind of a factory for educated humans from scratch. There was nothing before... There was just dirt farmland erea and know is standing there one of the most hightech waldorfschools in Germany. He constructed the buildings, made sure to get goverment support, got investments from other people, made decisions, took the risk with 10 other people on their own sholders when it fails. thats bold. Thats strong.

But he also told me about his "visions Suche" which showed me... everyone is all the time in search. I thought you figure it some day out. But it seems not to be true...

The only thing that changes is that you get more used to it over time.

also I'm not scared anymore. you know, I will never die, by not having money anymore. It will maybe be disgusting, but never so that it is killing you.

we got today 2 weeks more of free housing, which is very helpfull, because it will lead to time, where we can just think and build.

I think when you ask a lot of young people what they are most missing these days it is connections with the people direct next to them. It’s weird, we live in a hyper connected world but still everyone is telling about loneliness.

Today we live in two worlds, there is the digital world and the real world and we spend more time in the digital than in the real world on a given day. For me it makes no sense why we have to live in two worlds. Why can't we have one merged world?

There is one company that tries this, but they really don’t get the point. They try to replicate the phone in front of you. I think they are villains and they would get the complete monopoly about connections when they are the company that succeeds. They are the villain.

this thing should be built by people that truly have a sense of art. Otherwise it will hurt humanity.

currently we learn to endure pain... but I wrote this allready one year ago, and again the year before. maybe this is just life?

i have this thing in mind and it is not leaving. a hyper conected world in realworld. conectivity and informations presented seamless and in realtime. You have just by a blink of your eye all available informations about a person. you can ping, experience people in your own world but in the real world.. imagen you inviting your friends playing a overlay of the realworld together. Imagen you can generate every artefact that you want direct in front of you. imagen having like you have different maps in polytopia, you having different real worlds that you can select every morning to play?

when you just look in the faces of young people this is interesting. You see all there worries, all there struggles and yu know the interesting thing is. Everyone has it. Everyone has his own shit they struggle with. Is this not insane? is this not insane that our brain allways searches for something that it can struggle with? it lies in human nature.

What would happen if you could see fro every person struggle? What would happen if everyone shares his struggle with the people around them? Would people help each other? would this create extraordinary less pain in the world?

would a perfect world come out of beeing hyper conected in real life? right now we spent more time beeing conected in the artificial world then in the real world. which leads to less relationships in the real world, which leads to less sex in the real world, which leads to a declining humanity.

what if we could create this same conection / conecting feeling but in the real world? Why not just pining a girl that is sitting next to you instead of waiting until she puts of her headphones...?

why make womans allways weird things to your mind in the wrong situations?

now I'm in the fighter mode. Nobody will kill me, nobody will win against us. We will destroy them. Nobody will stop us in making the world a better place. I truly believe this and janta will be know in not so long time.

we will fuck you!

tokenizeIt is fucking us 6 more month :)

missing my family. coding here to change the world and singing christmas songs by myself. no money, no family. just work and changing the world to a better place.

First: When I was 14, I convinced my dad to open a stock account for me and I started investing. I put all my savings into it, and it quickly grew to €3,000. Then I thought I was the smartest person on earth and started investing in riskier things. One week later, I had lost almost everything. I was 15 at the time and I thought my life was over. I had messed it up. I deleted everything and stopped for a month.

Then I realized that life goes on and that I could learn and improve. I went deep into company analysis, fundamental analysis, and every book and source of knowledge I could find about investing. By the time I was 17, I had built my portfolio back up to €20,000.

This lesson was extremely important for me because I learned that life always goes on. In the hardest moments, it is just a matter of keeping going, learning, and pushing through. I have had several moments like this growing up, and I think I am in one again right now. It is painful, challenging, and also exciting, but most of all it is the moment to push through and reach greater heights.

Second: The most important thing is not which dragon you fight, but who you fight with.

When I was 16, I worked as the youngest intern in the biggest insurance company in Europe, and I had the best coach in the entire company. Not only that, but the department I worked in was the youngest and the fastest-growing in Europe.

This taught me not only how to deal with rejection, which you get a lot of in sales, but more importantly that the people around me have the biggest influence on my success. Since then, I have taken this very seriously. I would rather be hungry than be surrounded by the wrong people.

This also applies to the company we are building. It pushes me to only hire people I genuinely admire and want to become more like myself. In my opinion, this is one of the most important lessons of my life because it affects every part of it. I always try to surround myself with greatness to become a bit greater myself.

Third: Not caring about other people’s opinions is a skill I developed over time by actually executing on things.

I learned that when you care more about the mission than about what other people think, you get much further. I dropped out of high school at the end of school, not because it was too difficult, I was actually very good at it, but because I believed I was learning the wrong things.

Everyone told me to stay and said it was the stupidest decision of my life. Today, I believe it was one of the most important decisions I ever made. It proved to me that it does not matter how strongly people tell you not to do something if you truly believe in yourself and make your own decisions.

Since then, it has given me a strong sense of being different and trusting myself. That trust leads to higher self-confidence, which then leads to faster execution and faster learning in every area of life.

I'm confident it was the right decision, but it still feels horrible.

the first time I fired someone from the team. It's actually not nice. It's sad. You pull from someone else the visions, the motivation, the work etc.. from the earth. It's horrible.

Yotam -> Fired.

if you would decide for beeing special or beeing hungry, what would you choose? i think I'M special. I'm different and therefore I need to do everything that other people don't do. My live is forced to do things that seem not possible to the normal ones. the world is very difficult when you try to make things simple.

"I think we just have to have fun and appreciate the situation, some day we will look back and very likely say -> this was actually a fun time. this was the time where I had nothing to eat, don't know anything, but also nothing to loose. So enjoy the time" It feels this days hard to enjoy, because we are pushing on the limit, to build something that helps all of humanity. we sacrefice our own life to help humanity make progress forward. this is the bigger mission.

but still it is not everyday fun. not every moment is fun. there are moments more often, where we don't have money to afford food.

but arcadia is the best, we are living in arcadia with the smartest people in the world and get every day exposed to it.

Arcadia will and has shaped me allready in the best possible way.

simplifieng does magic. Steve Jobs, Elon Musk and 20 other biographies that I read have in common that the great people try to delete "unnecessity". I try to practice it too.

teaching people and yourself is allways highest priority!!!

reading is the path to succes.. when I can read everything 3x faster I will be 5x faster then the other people. I read currently on 2x pace everything that I need.

like bill gates said: read a lot of biographies. AGREE. Biographies is the best source to learn about live without experiencing it. Biographies have a naturell filter for good decisions. You experience the most succesfulls peoples decisions and thoughts in First Person View.

I think it is the right decision to fire Yotam from the team. He is not capable enough. We have to be rigorous or we will die.

Talked with a chinese VC today, they are insane termsheets. Be carefull. But they are also way more outcome driven then US VCs -> probably because they have less money.

We now built JANTA -> to create the biggest tech company in the world. I think our biggest product will be AR. Because AR will fundamental change how people see the world.

this is interesting. some weeks ago I started making konstantin think better infiltrated in him the thinking of true thinking and now he is doing the same on me and is infiltrating the thing of skilling up yourself into me. hard but true.

healthinsurance is actually pain. trying to raise small amount to don't die.

arrived yesterday back in the US, wuhu. now grind it out to get some angels and build the product.

the aircrofts lifts up slowly his wheels from the ground and with every breething of a second we see more and more of the skyline of Shenzhen. and it feels again like a moovie. It feels like beeing part of the greatest live possible.

with less then 20 dollars left in total but a life worht living. a live like a movie. and I'm highly thankfull for that. sitting here in the plain again. seeing all this "fremd" people.. seeing the clouds. sitting next to my best mindshared person and experiencing the world. the world in his roughness, beaty, flaws, richness, lovlyness.

thinking about how to make the world a better place. about how I can contribute. about to make things that matter happen and help to make this place here on earth, here in the solar system more exciting and worth living for everyone else.

I'm very gratefull of experiencing this kind of movie.

tommor morning before we flew at 1pm we visited a big clothing brand and manufacturer here in China. they produce so high quality products - a t-shirt for 6-9 dollars, a hoody for 11-16 a zipper for 12-18... and allready shpped here. the women in the entrance bought us food for breakfest in a local small shop and showed us the chinese breakfest tradition. she was so kind and she was so happy that we were there. it was kind of stunning. all the people want to make pictures with us and you feel like you'r the god, the hero. thank you for this awesome experience China. we so clothing, in the highest quality. for big western brands... all manufactured there. and she showed us around. -> then we want for 1h with the DIDI (uber) to Shenzhen airport, made a very seamless checking and while waiting for boarding having calls with US/europe investors to make the thing happen. idk. what to say.

also yesterday was a crazy day. we visited 4 hardware Factories that assemble and produce chips and other electronic boards and devices.. the one company builds boards for Infineon,nvidia, intel and other major players!!! everything here in Shenzhen and the cities around. it is incredible to see how hard these people work here to make the live in our western cultures happen. we got invited for dinner from our last company that we visited and had a incridible rich and foodfull dinner with them. we head around 4h dinner all chinese quisine and tradition, they showed us around and told about China, Chinas plans and what is important for them.

actually we in the US think a lot about China and worry.. actually China don't really thinks about the US... they just think about how they can grow faster and develop faster. they don't really care about US.. they care about China. also she told us and a lot of other chinese people told us the same... that China is now heavily trying to improve their quality of products.. they hate the image of bad quality for made in China products. they want that this is a sign for high quality.

the evening was also out of a moovie. they payed for everything. they invited us to local other stores to drink hot milk and experience chinese culture... when we wanted to leave they wanted to wait all the time until our Didi is arrived. it was a long wait... because we had again a lot of trouble with the chinese firewall and app system. everything gets blocked and when I wanted to connect with the chinese women on WeChat... I needed to auth... with my ID to get here contact. so this is something that is really annoying here. we were at an local egg store 2 day ago and konstantin needed to use his ID and need to make a KYC for his scrambled eggs.

so the whole experience is a movie. sometimes it feels like a escape room, sometimes like your the prince, sometimes just like humans living there live.

Shenzhen is clearly developing very very fast... all of China is developing very very fast.

I'm thinking sometimes what are the problems of other people? when I see people what do they struggle with?? because it deemed on me, that actually everyone struggles with something. i'm currently thinking of a girl. not only to fuck, but to have love. just love. also Idk. if chinese girls are my type. but we will see. and this money part, we need to solve this problem of insurance, we need to make the world a better place -> so we have to find someone who supports this!

thinking in thee plane / flight about how we get this deal over the finishline... from where and whom. currently flying above shanghai and getting insane good food and service on board. flying to corea and then from korea to SF. --> and hopefully they let us into US... otherwise idk. this would be very, very bad if not. -> then we have the last money to get to the hacker house. and then we need to find a angel to back us.

flying to China Shenzhen... isn't it insane :) see the world at 20 and make the life insane. like a moovie. feeling the movie here. and all this experience together with a loved person.

i feel very thankful for that. also I feel like life is for every human the same... there is no human in the world that has no fear, or nothing that he is not worrieng about, or that he is not sure about or stuff... like that. every human is fighting the same game. isn't that insane?

the insanity of life. is that we allways think other people that have what we have, other people have only good days, other people have only fun, other people only have success................ thats wrong.

it's me flying right now above the clouds. it's mee seeing the world. it's me living a assymetric life.

broke but insane.

someday I will look back at this time -> I will have a lot of money and think. what the fuck was that a awesome time... where you didn't had a lot of money and just was broke but going insane in the world.

thankyou for having an insane live.

when we were boarding the airplane -> we were not fully checked in. so they pulled us out. we were the last people. they phoned around and just 8 people were talking, clicking in insane speed on their computers. and dadaa.. the tickets were in our hands 3 minutes later. they asked for visas and stuff... I was thinking oh no shit. did we missed something? but no. we just were right.

the thing that nobody tells you is that the only way to get a joyfull live is to bake it full of joy and enjoy it. i feel like a loot of humans have this problem. they don't see the beaty of live anymore.

Okay, we go all in.

I texted Muis mom.

"Hi, bitte erzähl Miu nichts davon. Wie geht es euch? Wie geht es Miu? Kannst du mir sagen ob sie aktuell einen Freund hat oder ähnliches und ist sie schon in Australien oder noch in Dresden? Liebe Grüße, Tade"

Saw this bolivood moovie with the Indian heroes. That didn't wait. They just do it. Gor inspired from them to just start...

I feel like I need here just mentally. If he can love me like this here. Without money but with a mission. Then she is the right one.

She knows me best. She believes in me. She can give me the energy to get this 10M round done.

Maybe I got right now more trouble. But live is only fun with trouble.

Miss u

every application based on social interaction will work good.

ar will change how we see the world. it's not a replacement of the phone, it is something completely different.

the thing that will make AR going viral are social interaction applications.

we live in a world of screens and we screen the hole day long and the best thing we do is screening... everything happens on screens.... we are a screening society.

what we do is putting a overlay of the real world, putting a flexible screen into an onto the real world. my guess is that the most viral thing of it will be seeing informations in realtime about other humans. store informations attached to humans... not somewhere in the web.... just directly atttached to a human beside his face. looking into a street seeing what the people do, which music they here etc... these days the displays gotten good enough (META Displays). the killer applications will be everything that searches the net... and helps to kategorize people / storing informations about people around there head etc... I think the first thing that you allways want to have when you look at a person is: -Name -Age -Backround -Current Goals -what you talked about before with this person.

I can imagen everyone living in a different world but all in the same place. Why should not everyone have their hyper personlized world. Why should not everyone have the ability to change the colors or the brightness of their real world?

also I sleep here on a selfmade couch bed in the living room basement in arcadia. it doesn matter. it's shitty. but the right people sourround us. therefore it is good.

we have no mony to spent anymore... just 500 dollars for the next 2 weeks. thats not a lot. because we also go to china etc... so basiclly we have nothing. but we will survive. we allways survive. and the goal is to fight the problem. but for context my later self is hopefully proud of me not giving up.

-teached yotam. setted some goals. new tasks for the next days... it's just about executing the right things. fast. I like how we right now shape the company after our own thoughts how we bring things in to grow faster and build the best working team together. started with the book rule. everyone can put into everyones else calender just a book to read with a deadline. and when there is this book. everything else does not matter. the only thing that matter is to finish this book until the deadline. because growing and teaching is the most important thing. I kind of like this. secondly we really have as our advantage communitacion and fast execution. the is the highest lever that we can pull. we keep going with the podcasts. keep going with the other stuff and just allways pull the levers of faster... and better communication, which lead s to not working on stupid stuff.

how I'm? idk. if everything will work after plan. I feel like there are so many unknows. and we need to be so fast. that is insane. also this money raising part of 10M preseed is a huge thing. for firsttime founders raising 10M some people say maybe insane. so wee need to know why we actually need so much. to defend it and articulate it clearly.

-were today together with yotam and konstantin in escape room -worked on the risk model the hole night. -listened to book from book rule (jensen huang..) -started outreach to angels. -had 4h disscussion with konstantin and Yotam -had discussion with konstantin about how to integrate yotam... + how to upgrade comm. and learning. -booked flights back from china to SF. -> btw. idk if they will let us in. hopefully. I mean we make this country actually great. so we try to change something here in the country. so this is important! -there are so many things that can go wrong. and so many things that can go right. the difficult part is to go into the right direction and don't get messed up by noise. so the most important part is that we solve the problem. the problem of a bad health insurance that everyone hates.

i'm not exciting about it, I'm not worried about it... it's just a thing that have to get done. and so far there is noone that I trust that will solve that problem. no other company that I have seen. nobody. so we are the only valid company in the world that actually might be able to change this. so we should allways keep going. no matter what. no matter how hard we are to die. this problem causes people pain. and thats not needed!

today was demo day here in Arcadia... is cool to see some smart people presenting their ideas. and also I appreciate way more know this place here. the pixels come together... there were so many interesting people here in Berkeley, living here and building great stuff. I'm really thankful to have this sourrounding here, this berkeley sourrounding.

btw. I did not wrote a lot in here in the last days. i have some doubts on Yotam. He is not the smartest person... but idk. the people that he said are impressing are not impressive. had a long convo. with konstantin about him. I'm not sure... every story of founding something succesfull is that you hear you need to be hyper pickey about who you pick for your team... so why do we have Yotam on the team? he is not technical, not really smart and also has a limited mindset. but he is maybe fast in execution. actually I think konstantin grew a lot over the last year. he got also decent technical, so I'm proud of him. and proud of his mind how it developed. I think I pushed him especially good into the direction to question more things and ask more often if this is actually true.... he often now these days troubles me up with the term. this migh not be true. which mean he developed this good sense.

also I figured out that actually asking good questions is the most important skill these days. there are answers for everything but the questions are the streets to new answers.

so developing the magic of questions is all the time worth high.

also here is so much noise in SF.... so many people that have a startup. but a startup means nothing!!! a startup could mean you started yesterday... or you have millions of users. so don't trust people that say they have a startup. everyone can tell stories. view can actually build.

called with Joey (hiteyjit) today. I think I could help them to get motivation again to keep going. That's good.

I want to thank to Julia Harms, Rome Thorstenson, Marmik Chaudhari, Spencer Kinney, Yiğit Kılıçoğlu, Alessio Toniolo, Erik Bach Ryhl that right now here in Arcadia make me think faster.

I started developing as a leader the plan with Konstantin and Yotam, how the most customer friendly insurance on the planet integrated in a new health system could look like and what we need to build.

We sat down foe 4h and made the tasks ready fir the nwxt 6d. Idk. Where this will go and if after the next 6d I will say it was wrong to go with a random guy named yota to explore and build stuff. But I trust my gut. And my gut says it is worth testing it.

Basically the goal is to build in 6 days a fully production ready and functionell insurance that was never done before + a new health system around it that nobody build so far so detailed and integrated. Sounds cool? Yeah, it's a lot of work.

It's meaningfully work.

From a company perspektive we tap into the most valuable thing in this century (data). So our goal is to collect and connect as much data sources as possible aggregate it under one user and the mage magic with it.

Today I feel actually really good. Because today since a long time I see a clear path again hiw this might work.

Still yotam in our room is searching, I hate him for that. But yes the founder livestream is really boring but we get free food here, what is good. The outside is not as beautiful as Berkeley, but you need contrast to value what is good.

Without contrast everything would seem Grey. So we need the bad stuff to see good. We need poor people to feel rich, we need unhealthy food to eat healthy.

The only way to appreciate stuff is by seeing a contrast. So when I go and travel alone that's the best thing I can do, because often we see a contrast.

Today there where some "mahnungen" I'm briefcases so yeah, was not so cool when my mom sent it to me. Hopefully she will be not so worried about it.

And still there is this weird -750 bill from scalable that doesn't go out of my had. So it is the struggle in the building and always changes of moods in every second that make it so.... yeah.

You always get kicked in your ass wgen things work good. But you also always overlive things that are hardly bad, where you think that's the end.

arrived at the actioners house for the actioners week... (https://live.actioners.com/). feels a bit tasteless and empty everything. this is crazy but, arcadia is one of the single places that actually feel like family so far. Arcadia is a family. here it feels again like artificially grouping people but with out conection with each other. But we will see. so far not the place to live longer then for some days.

so for me the most important thing si to help humanity solve some important problems.

idk. why but elon nailed it: "if we are succesfull does it matter to the world"... this is maybe the single best question to qustion your work.

but the believe to have a meaningful live is burning.

today I coded mainly right.. helped the german waldorf girls @freya to get a interview with tokio hotel and follow her dreams. I mean to believe in yourself is one of the most important things you need to learn. I actually believe these days it is the most valuable skill that you can have. because executing is not anymore a thing of smartness... because we have these days smartness in a bottle (AI) which means you only need to have the will and believe to start executing.

the last weeks was a bit weird. because i was not really motivated to execute stuff... because it was very diffiucult to understand the world. by understand the world I mean. it is dificult to understand why humans life and what is the meaning of life. so yeah. this brought me to read Nitzsche, Socrates, Asimov, Biografies of Obama and other stuff that I could found.

also the china thing made everything more and more confusing. idk why. but I feel that china might be the most important country in the future. because all this americans worry about and china only focus to get stronger. China works. US demonstrates. but this makes the whole scene more weird. because every european founder says to you... "go to US, when you want to have meaning". but this is not actually true maybe anymore? but people say it.

also I started to watch porn again. Idk. why but probably to have a time don't thinking about how the world looks and what the role of humans are.

this thing made me very thoughful and confused. like why do we exist as humans? how are we different to AI?

but most important the question that is still floating in my had is: what is the most important thing to work on.

idk why... but allways when I start something i think emediatly is this actually important. which often leads then to the conclusion no.. and my motivation goes down...

I found out that I have this 3 month cycles. I have an idea or a thing.... i go deeper in it I understand the problems -> new idea is coming into my head... think it is a better one... and the cycle starts from new... this is bad.

anyway.

it is so difficult to find out what is true and what not about life.

but I feel this makes you go forward. founders are basically people that predict the future and then try to build on this prediction.

so it feels that I should learn how to predict better. but for this I need to understand the world.

so today I helped the german girl (she is 14, smart). -programmed my stuff (this site to the end, so that it is now officially on the web). -still thinking about my goals for this year.

i was calling this year (living my 21 year on earth.) the year of achieving. every goal this year is something related to an achievement... the last year was the year of learning and experience... this year is fully achieving.. which means executing a lot of stuff..

my grandfather and grandmather donated me 500€ just on my birthday for the china travel. Im really thankful for that. I was a bit scared from it. because it was just out of the blue and I looked on my phone. but I'm actually so thankful. thanks grandpa, and grandma. your the best that I could imagen. I want to give them back so much. They are truly great. i'm currently still broke in a sense that I have zero money and our gmbh has a runway of 1-2 month ish...

but this thing makes me also shown I don't want to be dependent on my family. i want to have the succecfull startup. i feel the chip on my shoulder, because there is no other way. there is only the way of having success with the startup. id dropped out of school. so they expact that I will get things running. I also believe in it. but I still have fear. and doubts.

I just wrote this at 2am so it is still valid to say it is the 3. november. :)

sometimes I think I'm crazy, sometimes I just want to change the world and sometimes I only want to be a kid again.

Today was my 20. birthday. yeah. and actually it was really cool. but not that cool that you expected. I worked mainly and had a video call with my family. We were calling the day I showed them berkely. because I'm rigth now in the USA in berkely. actually.

it was really cool to see my family together again. i mean there is some bad vibes some day. and mom, dad are not happy with each other. and this spreads over. but today was cool.

also my one grandmother that I do not have so much contact with had a awesome thing to tell about how they produce there morning act.

• yeah so took some call with founders from sf for insurance -> im still not sure if this is the way to go...

• figured out today that i need to set goals. because that's the only way live is not so confusing. Goals makes live easier to understand, because you can channel your focus on things that you think are important.

• also I still believe we have no free will and everything is actually only a matter of what we observe which leads to, that our goals are also only a matter of what we observe. yes, but hopefully I observed good things.

• im still broke (around -600€ on the bank) but confidente to change the world to something positive. I still believe that those who think they can change the world and thos who think they can't are both usually right.